The Best Friend's Girl

My name is Kim. Last year I realized that I was in love with my best friend's girl - Nadia. Later, completely spontaneously, I started a relationship with a friend of my secret crush. It seemed that this new romance should fix everything, but it only confused me even more. And not long ago, I found out that my best friend paid attention to Nadia not by chance.

And now I'm asking myself the question: what if I had confessed my feelings to her first?

What if I hadn't been afraid of my feelings?

And how can I break out of this vicious circle now?