The Concubine. Life on a Chain

My meaning of life was Him. For his sake, I gave up my future and my childhood dreams. I became the disgrace of my family, which had held high positions at the court of the Beast Kingdom for centuries. Succumbing to feelings and emotions, I turned into one of hundreds of concubines. For what? My life turned into a precious prison of rules, yet it never brought me happiness.
Maybe the second chance is given to me precisely for this? To gain freedom, previously unreachable, or am I doomed to repeatedly make the wrong choice?